For the past three days, God has placed some pretty amazing events before me. And while I have not discussed the details of each of them, the people involved know exactly who they are and why their fingerprints on my life have shifted my view and point of view with regard to Domestic Violence. I was reminded that I am a conqueror, mother, ThriveHer, child of God, an advocate, and fighter. My lips speak life into my Purpose and my heart, mind, body and soul are the warriors that carry the life’s mission through.
If you had told me on February 24, 2016, that I would be an Executive Director and Founder of an IRS approved 501 (c)3 organization, speak in a room of people that has more than two people in it about a subject that haunted my life for what seemed to be forever, I would say “Uhmm, no that would not be me” or “I cannot see me doing that”. On February 25, 2016 all of those things came to pass to say the very least of these things.
Before this happen, I heard peers, friends, and acquaintances share that they knew that I was a very spiritual person when in reality, I was not as spiritual as I should be. My relationship with God needed some fine-tuning and though I always believed in God, I did not believe in His abilities. The saying “Seeing is believing” used to be my pledge and now the words “Only God” is now in its place.
I remember asking a friend a few days ago via text (of course) “Why would He bless me this way”? I mean, I am not a bad person or anything like that, I just questioned why God would choose me for such a task like this. He has called me to speak to masses, share my message to change the lives of others, place myself at the forefront and take the brunt of whatever comes from it and today, I do so without fear. But I will be “transparent” when I think about all of the well-spoken, manicured, educationally, and intellectually gifted people who could be in my place, I wondered why I would be His choice.
This morning, after speaking with someone that I know will be instrumental and influential in my life, I realized that He chose me because He knew I could do it. Yes, I am slightly afraid and VERY eager, I refuse to stand down. Nevermind how Perfectly Imperfect I am, awkwardly shy (about some things) with a southern dialect that often causes me to stumble over my words when I catch myself speaking too fast, I am good enough. I know that despite my inexperience, He has chosen me, will mold me into the vessel that will do His will and do so purposefully.
To many onlookers’ surprise, I am not afraid of the amazing things that are happening in my life (the things I share and the things that remain between me and God). Yes, I might appear to be 100% sure about what I am doing and the reason would be of my faith in myself and God. I cannot and will not go back – hmmm, three days of God showing me power has made me a believer for a lifetime.
Are you ready to give Him a try and JUMP even in Fear?
Sonya McKinzie a/k/a Ms. Darkskinisbeautiful