Exclusively and Wholeheartedly
“I love you and barely even know you,” he whispered. Then how could you love me? I wondered. As clear as the sky was blue, he proved those words untruthful with his actions, which contradicted his poetic “love stories.” During countless conversations, he promised not to lie, hurt, or betray me, but once again he lied. Finally, I promised not to give in to his antics again. By giving in, I would only be setting myself up for brokenness, pain, and disappointment. This recurrent trauma, alongside others, began to tear up my expectations of others.
Over time, I learned that people are human and flawed. To place faith in a person means gambling with believing that a human will do what he says he will do and trusting that he is a person of his word. After many years of giving a man power over me, my emotions, spirituality, and life overall, I began to realize that it is God who will always have my back. God has never turned away from me nor will he ever. His word has never deceived me. Hebrews 11:6 says, “And without faith it is impossible to please him, for whoever would draw near to God must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who seek him.” Here, God shares that we must have faith in him as it pleases him, and to be without it is to turn away from him and his will for our lives.
Dear God, please take me as I am, cleanse me, and mold me to be a vessel for your works. Bowed before your throne, accept me as I am imperfect and spiritually thirsty. Amen.
There Is Nothing Rarer, nor More Beautiful
God Favors you
No one knows your story
personally and intimately like you
All of the agony and wretchedness
that consumes you is not
In all that you have suffered
God has and forever will be faithful to you
He delivers and loves you
God loves you
Stop trying to figure out
how the story will end
Place your burdens at the altar
let him have his way
Speak to him
tell him your story
then ask him what it is that you need him to do
Once you do that
God will show you favor
and remove all that is not of him
from your life
Ask God for a clear point of view
so that you can see your way through
Be patient and sit still and watchful
and God will bless you
Be faithful. Be silent. Be still.
God will bring you through because God favors you!