How interesting and fitting it was the topic of discussion at church this past Sunday, Father’s Day. The topic was “Fatherlessness”. Our pastor passionately explained how children/adults go through life with the void of a father find themselves with wounds, emotional wounds. Ironically, I am a product of fatherlessness. I always knew that the absence of a father in my life affected me. Often, I discussed how my father being inactive in my life made an impact on me emotionally.
It took many years for me to acknowledge my wounds. The wounds that was deep inside of me, fatherlessness-wounds. I neglected to take my time, to grieve the death of my father-daughter relationship that died shortly after its birth. Pains of my father-wounds were frequently triggered by instances that resulted in the need for a father figure, later followed by personal conversations with God. Emotionally I felt as if I were rejected by my father and pondered the reasons a man could leave an innocent child, I later found my answer. The same answer that was later articulated in the Father’s Day message in the Father’s Day 2015 sermon, that some men can be selfish, immature, and/or unwilling to be a responsible father. That’s some of the reasons that fathers walk away from their responsibility. The fact that fathers leave, by no means is a result of something the child has done but instead all in part of the bad choices that humans make as imperfect creatures.
The pastor’s message Sunday, reminded me of the generational curse that might have find itself hoovering over my seed, if I allowed it.
I refuse to allow fatherlessness to be a continuation of my brokenness. I was reminded that while there are people who go without earthly fathers, in sadness, they fail to recognize the presence of our Heavenly Father. No, we cannot see him, our touch him in the flesh, but we can feel him in our spirit and he never leaves us. I was reminded that it is my responsibility to close the gap between my daughter’s relationship with our Heavenly father God.
Fatherless has been an epidemic, I am not a part of it nor is my seed. The epidemic does not continue with us, God is our father, always and forever will be.
Sonya a/k/a Ms. Darkskinisbeautiful