Last week, was my first week starting my “Group Dynamics” class. If you have followed my blog you probably know that my dream is to complete my MBA by the end of this year and receive my degree in Human Services Counseling with a focus in family and marriage counseling. While it has been a long road, I am finally getting to the “meat” of my major.
As a need to completing my class, I am required to attend and see several support groups (i.e. AA or NA) and then draft a term paper on what I learned from the meetings and the process steps for growth. Now I have to start by saying I had the pleasure of attending 2 support groups this past week and weekend and it was absolutely amazing. Upon entering both meetings, I was welcomed and quickly observed the warmth and non-judgmental environment. The members were supportive, humble, open and with out “ego”. Interestingly enough, a common word that the members shared was that they started out with a big “ego”, anger, and want to be in control.
The members in the Saturday meeting reflected on “Powerlessness”. While going around the room and the members shared their thoughts about “Powerlessness” and what it meant to them …. Light bulbs lit up in my head over and over again. I began to reflect on countless times when I wanted to be in control of a personal issue that I had and in trying to be in controlled the situation seemed to get even more intense and hard to overcome. While my faith in God has often slipped from time to time and I faltered I have always known that God is in and always will be the director of my life. We must remind ourselves that our momentum and “Power” comes from God not from a person, idol, bottle, a drug, a plate, etc.
One of the statements from the AA meeting that stands out vividly is when a member said ” We admitted we were powerless over alcohol and that our lives had become unmanageable. You must take this literally: we’re powerless OVER alcohol. I call myself an alcoholic because I can’t have one drink. I may say I’ll have a drink and even believe it but I’m incapable of stopping at one”. This is a phrase that applies to any situation that we struggle with. We should keep in mind, that we need to remain faithful to God and we will see that he is the root of our “Power” and “Strength” comes from.
Food for thought: Isaiah 40:29 “He gives power to the weak and strength to the powerless”.