As my daughter and I made our 5 1/2 hour drive to my mother’s house in South Georgia, I felt the blossoming of excitement in my heart. Periodically I would look over my shoulder at her as she slept or played and I thought about the turn of events that transpired this year. The many trials between the later part of 2012 and October 2013, bickering over paternity and visitation. You know the typical trials and tribulations that single parents experience when they cannot come to agreement over the needs of their children.
In my heart, I knew that all the hardships endured this past year happened for a reason. The outcome was one that would be a part of my testimony later in life, so I have no regrets. However, I will be first to say that this year would have been my first time away from 2 1/2-year-old during the holiday season and as God would have it, that was an experience I did not have to endure, this year because of a choice that her father made not to take advantage of his visitation rights at Christmas. That was a silent blessing because God knew that I was not ready for not being with her this Christmas Day.
There has been an abundance of trials and tribulations in my life period. My peace was affected by the rain of doubt and depression. My friends were few and my faith in God was minimized by the turn of events. Questioning my purpose for life, why I had experienced so many hardships and if the turbulent road would wind down and end.
Reflecting on 2013 brings moments of sadness and gladness. Overall God has blessed me with love and means to care for me and my child with minimal worries. 2014 will start with some continued turbulence personally but essentially I know that will make way to a better year for me.
Reflecting, reflecting and reflecting on my family, career, house, success and I have chosen not to make New Year’s Resolutions but instead, make efforts to change in my future for next year and beyond….